Rationalizations and justifications

Because I "only" had 5 projects awaiting completion, I decided it was time to cast on for a pair of fingerless gloves. I ran a very comprehensive rationalization of why I could delay the works in process even further and, I am happy to say, it was successful.

The cables on the sweater's sleeve require me to pay attention and I'd rather do something less thought consuming. The shawl pattern is fairly mindless but it is going to take a long time to finish. The seams on the cardigan need to be taken out and put back in, which requires full daylight to see well. I didn't want to haul the sewing machine out to bind the quilt or finish the blouse. And, (major point here) my hands felt cold as I was typing on the computer. Obviously, diving through my yarn stash and patterns was necessary. On hand were several small balls of Shetland wool and a pattern for fingerless gloves just begging to be started. So start them I did.

And as I contentedly worked away on my satisfying little project, I wondered why I felt the need to rationalize anything.

There seems to be an unspoken assumption that completion of something is a virtue that must be achieved before another something can be begun. But why do I (and seemingly others) make that assumption? And is there any truth to it?

If meaning lies only in the completion of a thing, then perhaps the assumption makes sense. But, that doesn't seem to be true to me. The hours of knitting, sewing, and writing are full and complete in and of themselves. The thought, creativity and devotion of each stitch, each word or each action exists in its own moment regardless of its ultimate disposition.

Each project, action, relationship has its own seasons, whether to be started or finished or perhaps put aside. Like plants in a garden, sometimes one needs more attention than another. As the ultimate mistress of them all in my life, my task may be to help them along, each in its time, rather than to try to control the phases. To make way for what calls in the moment.

Purpose

As I have matured, grown older and, hopefully, learned a few things; I have discovered my spirituality shifting. In writing this blog, I hope to explore how the spiritual and the so-called non-spiritual are determined only by our perception of them.

I find deep meaning in the work of my hands, whether that be creating something new or cleaning something old. (excepting toilets. I haven't found meaning in cleaning those yet.) My work for money includes a lot of use of my intellect and can be challenging. But, I am finding that those things that I can hold in my hands feel like more of an accomplishment or, perhaps, more real.

So, I will be reflecting on what might be the mundane aspects of life and how they may offer the deep spiritual underpinnings that many folks look for. I'll also be musing on quotes from others that seem true to me. I'll probably also be posting images of completed projects once I get up to speed on this blogging thing.